Wow.
I just emerged from a 9 day project that I think honestly may have changed the trajectory of my life. Or at least, I hope it will, because it felt so damn good.
Of course, I can’t tell you what the project is… Sorry. (I know! How annoying!) All I can say about that is that all will be revealed in September, mostly because I love to do something special and creative for my birthday! But I can tell you how the experience felt, and I’m really writing that as much for myself as for you… Because I want to remember.
This project felt like my version of Andy Warhol’s Factory. It felt like joyful creative community. It felt like a collaboration with the perfect team. It felt like ease. It felt like alchemy, like something magical happened when all the elements came together, which they did, every single day, without fail. It felt like the more of myself I brought, the better it was. It felt like Mama’s living room, as RuPaul would say. It felt like goosebumps, often. It felt like I was born to do this. And it felt like… It mattered. It was deep. It continually surprised me. And when we were in the process, I could literally feel the people it was going to touch and change.
I had one hard day, and it was an action-packed day where my PMS was also getting the best of me. I remember walking into my bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror, and asking out loud, “Why did I agree to do this?!” A moment of dread, for sure. But thankfully… The hormonal sea shifted, my little pink boat got back on course, and the next day, I was raring to go.
Sometimes the days were so, so long. I’m talking 7:30am until 11:30pm long. And yet!!! I never went to bed feeling drained. I took a bath and ate cake because I was so happy! Yes, I was tired, but I was amped! I was loving it! I was so excited about the entire process. And I was honored to have so many people give their time and lend their generous brains to the project.
Here are some of the things I want to remember:
How quickly magic happens when I say YES and I just MOVE. This project was pitched on January 19th and completed by May 23rd.
How wonderful it is when I don’t overthink and I simply allow my ENTHUSIASM to lead me. So many of us overthink and end up talking ourselves out of creative challenges that might bring so much fulfillment. My advice? Just say yes and TRUST that you will figure it out as you go along!
How much I love working with people who have good, optimistic, powerful, pure energy… And how I have absolutely zero desire to work with anyone who could take it or leave it!
That I really love being the boss ;) but I also love taking care of people, making them coffee, and making sure they feel good and comfortable in my home!
That I have WAY more energy than I give myself credit for. That I can do SO MUCH MORE than I have been doing. And that it feels really GOOD to push myself and reach a new level of understanding.
And… That it is really fun to feel out of my depth and be a beginner. Like, dude. It’s fun to stretch! It’s fun to learn it as you do it! And in fact, these are the things that give me the most confidence and joy.
Thanks for reading. BRB, off to restructure my entire business! 🤪
xo,
Don't burn out with all of that hard work before you get to reveal it all to us!
the hype around whatever is coming is PALPABLE and I can’t wait for it!!